Humble Beginnings,

Hello, my name is Bernestine. And I am the first to testify of what I have experienced, the after affects of what I experienced, and how I over came because of those experiences. Growing up at the tender age of 5, I was exposed to molestation by a neighbor and close friend of the family. That experience opened the door to other areas prematurely  in life like premarital sex, alcohol, drugs, isolation and rejection, which also included different forms of abandonment and loss in various forms. I had opened doors (spiritual gateways) that I had no idea how to shut until now. I unknowingly created strongholds in my life that ultimately lead to low self-esteem, depression, and uncontrollable anxiety attacks. Growing up in a home where there was unlimited amounts of alcohol, adultery, anger, emotional and physical abuse it was easy to adapt to those conditions as being normal. 

Like other young minds, I felt the only way to get out of that situation was to move out. Well needless to say my moving out opened more doors (spiritual gateways) that was even more harder to close. It was not until I was well in my 30's that I was able to receive some insight that I could understand and that made sense to why all this was happening. I moved away from my hometown and got introduced to a new way of life. One that was free from alcohol, drugs, sexual promiscuity and the temptations that those things brings. I had a void that needed to be filled. I NEEDED HELP!

By the grace of God,  I found the only one thing that could fill the void that I had in my soul. And that was a relationship with Jesus Christ. So let me break it down to you!  I decided to yield my ability, my know how, along with my ability to judge correctly every decision for my life solely on my own intellect, by letting go of my will; I was afforded the protection, peace, security, and comfort of our loving Father who resides in Heaven. Giving my life to Christ was the best thing I could have ever done. That one thing changed my life for the good. After years of substance abuse  I can now say  that it has been over 20 years that I have been free of those things that held me bound. And I give all the credit to my Savior, The Lord Jesus. 

Christ is the only one that can set you free forever. To be totally free in Christ requires you to die to yourself daily and to put on the nature of Christ. Only Christ can transform you. Only Christ can set you free from the bondage of sin. Only Christ can heal the wounds of the past. Only Christ can save you, deliver you, and make you whole. You can't cover up a spiritual problem with a carnal or fleshly remedy. Only Christ can fill your void and heal your heart..

Having His spirit, the Holy Spirit dwell on the inside of me is what keeps me from wanting to revert back to that old lifestyle. The Holy Spirit is always there speaking to me and leading me in the right direction. 

I have been Redeemed by the Blood of the Lamb

Your Faithful Servant,

Bonnie